I’m really needing all my strength and courage to stay in India at the moment. I’m not feeling much joy, and am wondering what all these testing times mean.
One year has almost past since I’ve been living in Mumbai. It’s left me feeling tired and jaded. I came here with a huge dream, and have managed to fulfill it beyond my expectations. But now I seem to have lost track with it.
I’m not inspired anymore. So many day to day things weight me down.
I’ve been feeling so tense. Not stressed, but tense. I think a lot of it has to do with the terrorist attack, and the realisation that I’m not living in a safe environment. I spend all day sitting in front of my laptop writing. I don’t take enough breaks. I end up with neck pain and headaches. I lack energy, and don’t feel like going out at all.
Again, I’m starting to think of home and how pleasant it would be to be back there. I have to fight this feeling though. In my heart, I know my future is in Mumbai for now. I still have so much I want to achieve here. If I leave, dragging my husband with me, I know I’ll regret not leaving on our terms, when we’re really ready. I just have to start believing in my dream again.
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Hi..so Did you Leave or did you stay in Mumbai? I am an Indian but have stayed abroad for long time and have been back in India for work..I face the same question…very curious to know if you left or you stayed back
Hi Viksdes — I stayed. Guess I’m just really stubborn and didn’t want to let India get the better of me! If I left, I felt like I would be running away. But for me, I have a bigger picture in mind, which is why I’ve chosen to live here in the first place. So running back to Australia when it gets a bit tough won’t really serve a good purpose. I need to stay here and deal with it. You really need to picture what you have in mind for the future, and where your goals lie, and decide on that basis.